Back?

It's midnight on the night before I head back to the Czech Republic for my 6th year and though I'm tired both physically and emotionally I'm not ready for bed. So instead I go about wasting time in the usual fashion: TV, facebook and reading the news. When I'm this tired I know that I should go to bed but some part of me feels compelled to stay up. At the moment I'm wondering if that part of me is afraid of wasting my life or afraid of living it. In theory I don't want to miss out on life but I know that I often turn from those things that would bring growth to my soul and mind and instead settle for the warm comforts of stagnation.

This preamble is to say that I once again going to try and blog. I think that I like to write but often I don't do it and instead find a million other ways to waste my time. One problem I have with writing blogs can be summed up in the following quote from Pliny the Elder:

"True glory consists in doing what deserves to be written; in writing what deserves to be read; and in so living as to make the world happier and better for our living in it."

To make both our lives and our words have meaning is a momentous and sacred charge and although I agree with it in principal the casual blog writer may at times find this sentiment more oppressive than inspirational. I will try my best to both live and write according to Pliny's mantra but I will instead take for myself the less illustrious muse the old adage "that if something is worth doing, it is worth doing badly". I feel that the process of writing is worth something even if my themes or style lack something to be desired.

So onward and upward. I hope this is the beginning of a new blogging season and the beginning of stealing back a little bit more life from the vast pool of wasted time.